LivingTodayInThePresent

This morning, I was able to read a spammed comment just as everything was about to be deleted. Apparently, the email address left was fake so it went straight to Akismet spam. The comment is not verbatim since I had like 2 seconds to read before the spam comments were erased but according to A@*****.com, “Masyado ka naman ata feeling maganda you’re not ugly but you’re not that pretty”.

Well, thank you for the comment. I’m glad you didn’t find me butt-ugly and that’s good enough for me. ^_^ I guess the feeling maganda comment was either placed because I complained about Creepy-Stalker-Guy or it could be for the post about my belief that I’ve never looked and felt better about myself than I do today or maybe it was even in the page about my profile when I said my pictures were misleading– but as my friend, Jay who is the lord and master of The Couch said and I quote, ehem, paste actually:

jay-le: we all come off differently to people. so you dont really have to worry that much about it. could have come from some insecure person…nothing wrong with a little confidence. basta wag overdone.

But in a way, I do understand A’s sentiments. Beauty after all, is subjective. A person’s beliefs, background, experiences and judgement shapes his opinion. Say for example, I know someone who thinks that Angelina Jolie  is like the devil herself. She finds the actress ugly, with maga lips and thinks that Jolie is an adulterous fiend. That person unfortunately, was cheated on by her boyfriend of two years around the time when Brad and Jen’s marriage was crumbling before the public eye.

And while I don’t recall imposing my looks on anyone, I do remember what an arduous journey it was for me to reach this place. This place meaning having my self-esteem intact even after being dumped like garbage– this point in my life where I feel better about myself than ever before. Then if that’s what feeling masyadong maganda is, then hell yeah I’m guilty! Read the rest of this entry »