LivingTodayInThePresent

I recently got a copy of Utada Hikaru’s song, “First Love” and it struck a chord in my otherwise, black as coal, hard as a diamond, heart. The melody’s simple and haunting and I may not understand every single line sung but after I googled the English translation, I fell in love with it all the more.

Officially, Utada Hikaru’s “First Love” is now my emo-song. I can actually sing along with most of it, even though its Japanese. @.@

Saigo no kisu wa
Tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Anata wa doki ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I’ll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugokidasou to shiteru
Wasuretakunai koto bakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Anata wo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I’ll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever

English Translation

Your kiss was cigarette flavor,
bitter and sad scented.
24 hours from now,where would you be,
who will you be thinking of?
You will always gonna be my love,
Even if one day I were to fall in
love again,I will remember to love,
you taught me how,

You will always gonna be the one,
even right now,its still a sad
love song,until when I will be
able to sing a brand new song…

The time is starting to move on,
So many things that I wouldn’t want
to forget,
24 hours from now, I will be crying,
thinking of you…
You will always be inside my heart,
Always, there is a place for you deep
in my heart.
I was glad I had a place in your heart too.

Now and forever you will be still the one,
Right now its still a sad love song,
Until when I will be able to sing a brand new
song…

You will always gonna be my love,
Even if one day I were to fall in love again,
I will remember to love, you taught me how,
Now and forever you will always gonna be the one,
Right now, its still a sad love song…
Now and forever…

When I hear it or when I sing it in my head, I feel joy and sadness at the same time. I guess I’m at that point after a failed relationship where I can now look back with a smile and not wish for anything more. I particularly feel very happy knowing that I loved someone like that–I do feel like such an idiot about how much of a doormat I became but in the end, I was glad I learned to love someone like that.