LivingTodayInThePresent

It’s been a long time since my last update and let me tell you, a LOT happened to me–physically, emotionally and mentally. ^_^ Here’s a rundown before I begin another day of work:

Blogbites 1. Dubbing Debut. Michiko and I were invited by Cholo last Wednesday evening for an honest to goodness, will-be-seen-on-television dubbing session. And guess what, our first roles were to be screaming fangirls in the sports anime, Offside!!!! *woot* LOL. It’s somewhat fitting to do that role first because after all, we are hardcore anime screaming fangirls–it just felt a little weird having to scream over the non-bishie character Gorou and we had to change our voices a couple of times to make it seem like there were a lot of screaming fangirls. It was fun! But that night, I guess what surprised Michiko and I the most was the fact that most of the people involved in Tagalized anime dubbing from writing to providing voices to directing were MEN. The two other ladies we saw earlier had left immediately when we came in and we got left behind with 5 (?) guys. Since we already knew Bryan and Cholo, we didn’t find it difficult to be in an all male company and actually, most of the guys were pretty nice and actaully seemed to be quite shy in talking to us. Most of the guys there though were actually pretty goofy, anime loving gamers and it was a fun experience getting to know them. Sidenote: there are dogs in the facility–IIIIIEEEEEE!!!!!! Carlo scared me pretty badly when he imitated a dogs bark and grabbed my calf from behind! *sobs*

Blogbites 2. Subic Days. Last Thursday to Saturday, I was in All Hands Beach resort in Subic with my HCCA officemates. I was a little apprehensive going at first–most of my officemates are older and I was worried I would not be able to fit in during those days–it’s one thing interacting daily in the office but it’s another to be with each other 24/7. Thankfully, my apprehensions were groundless and I had a blast swimming, cooking, and hanging out with my officemates–I also played dodgeball for the first time! I also got the chance to hear very mature adult conversations, *wink wink* hahahahaha! Oh and another thing, since the water was quite itchy–Joanne and I opted to get a tan instead. So I’m happy to announce I got a slight and very nice looking tan from Subic. My hobbypoints saleslady also commented how sexy I looked–and to think I wore regular clothes! Bwahahahaha!!!! Black is sexy.

Blogbites 3. UPLAE. Last Sunday, despite the aches and pains and weariness from the teambuilding–I took the UP Law Aptitude Examination. I would love to say it was easy IF I didn’t crap all over the quantitative reasoning part. Seriously, I breezed through most of the exams–I would finish 5 or 10 minutes ahead of time but when I got to the Math part– EEK!!! My brain shut down, I couldn’t recall how to solve the given problems, I played Russian roulette on most numbers but what’s worse is that I left 15 or 20 items unanswered. *starts banging head on table* OMFG!!!! I just hope my confidence in all the other exams pull me through– because I swear, Math would be the death of my UP Law dreams.

Blogbites 4. Realization. The quiet time in Subic and the aftermath in UP not to mention hanging out with Hero TV guys has led me to an epiphany–I’m seriously not interested in guys right now. The realization is a bummer because nothing would entertain me more and take my mind off Vince as successfully as dating a new guy. But I can’t seem to sum up enough energy to be interested–sure, I’ve been fixing myself up more now and I’m enjoying activities I wasn’t able to enjoy as part of a unit but I guess I’ve also been pushing myself a little too much to recover faster. On my way back home from UP, the weight of remembering hit me harder than ever before. I was in Megamall then, looking for an Ouran manga when I realized suddenly, I missed having that special someone whom I could tell my apprehension about the LAE, my joy over the teambuilding, my satisfaction over my acquired anime–little things like that. Loneliness was crushing me but even then, I knew I wouldn’t call on someone to keep me company anymore because I knew I was only rushing myself. I’m okay really but getting used to loneliness is a burden I must bear on my own. I guess the loneliness just seems magnified lately because I also realized the true reason for the break-up. That he just didn’t love me anymore. While that awareness puts a painful cap on closure, it’s another new realization to grapple with on my own. Oh well, I’ve made it this far and my hair’s growing long again so maybe it won’t be so bad. It could always be worse. ^_^