Nostalgia
When the past becomes present…
lisa_simpson: so he was ur one big crush in college… had one too…
joan_g1014: yeah!
lisa_simpson: yeah and u said in ur blog, mejo parang gusto ka din ng guy
joan_g1014: so when he called me that night, he confessed he liked me
joan_g1014: i didn’t say anything—i couldn’t say anything to be exact
joan_g1014: but i was thrilled
joan_g1014: but season pa so i just passed it off as a joke
joan_g1014: then there was this victory party night where he held my hand, was very malambing and all… but nothing happened… next thing i know, a few months later, i heard may gf na sya
joan_g1014: that was the end until a few weeks back i got a quote
joan_g1014: i didn’t know who it was
joan_g1014: it was him ulit and he told me to save his number so ayun, we’re back in touch again but the thing is, what’s between us feels open-ended
lisa_simpson: im in shock here’s ur second chance
lisa_simpson: well do u still like him?
joan_g1014: its hard to distinguish between the remnants of the kilig before and what i feel now
joan_g1014: it could be that i just want closure kasi i just never really did anything
joan_g1014: pero im not looking to hook up with him… parang i just want him to know that before, i really liked him
lisa_simpson: e joan, think about it
lisa_simpson: if u tell him now that you had such strong feelings for him
lisa_simpson: think of whats going to happen next
lisa_simpson: naturally he just doesnt want to be in a platonic relationship with you kasi he found a way to revive your “friendship”
joan_g1014: i know… weird….i don’t know what i want to do
joan_g1014: definitely i’ll pick vince but as i said, what’s between us is open-ended, that i want some closure…ewan ko nga why i even feel that why
joan_g1014: i usually don’t drag out the past, lalo na ngayon but i can’t help but feel nostalgic—as i said, everything in my life’s going full circle or coming to a head
lisa_simpson: siguro nga kaya ka pa din ganyan kasi there was no closure
lisa_simpson: thats the danger when you have what ifs
lisa_simpson: and maybe ur not happy na din (im just assuming) thats why you’re reacting that way
joan_g1014: maybe i guess im just the type of person who wants everything neatly wrapped up, OC ika nga
joan_g1014: ikaw, what would you do?
lisa_simpson: i would assess first where i am with my bf
lisa_simpson: kasi the way you say it, parang di din naman ganon ka-ok relationship niyo e
lisa_simpson: as u said , ur occasionally happy
lisa_simpson: me kasi i take risks e
lisa_simpson: para sure ako, walang regrets
lisa_simpson: walang what ifs
lisa_simpson: that would kill me kasi
lisa_simpson: have you seen him na ba ulit?
joan_g1014: nope
joan_g1014: haven’t seen him in person
joan_g1014: and the funny thing is, same school kami
lisa_simpson: maybe when you see him, you’ll be more sure
joan_g1014: btw, sya yung isang guy i was talking about in my new post, knights in shining armor, hehehe
joan_g1014: or maybe i just want us to be good friends
lisa_simpson: hmmm i dont think so
lisa_simpson: somehow i think u still like him pero u cant have him or u dont want to have him
lisa_simpson: parang dream guy ganun
lisa_simpson: ur not a risk-taker no?
joan_g1014: hahahaha, well i am a risk taker when it comes to personal goals and ambitions
joan_g1014: but sobrang torpe ako in matters of the heart
joan_g1014: i get rattled easily, i don’t take risks nga pag matters of the heart
lisa_simpson: nyarks ingat ka
lisa_simpson: kasi u might end up just settling
joan_g1014: i hope not pero kasi he is this dream guy, exciting, cute, unattainable
lisa_simpson: so what do u plan to do?
lisa_simpson: so ur constant texters?
lisa_simpson: exciting nga to a hahaha
joan_g1014: wala…just text-text…i really can’t imagine being anything more
joan_g1014: maybe alam mo yun, he’s just meant to be the dream guy im never supposed to have
lisa_simpson: hmmm well just dont close any doors thats my friendly piece of advice
lisa_simpson: para no regrets talaga
lisa_simpson: no more what ifs
lisa_simpson: you’re still young, you can afford to take risks
joan_g1014: thanks mona
joan_g1014: mona d’ mango
joan_g1014: thank you ha
lisa_simpson: hahah its not as if im helping 
lisa_simpson: you’re welcome
lisa_simpson: pero kwentuhan mo ako when something exciting happens
joan_g1014: hahahahaha
joan_g1014: i can’t exactly share this with my other friends
joan_g1014: yikes! he suddenly texted
joan_g1014: shucks i feel so high school when im with him
lisa_simpson: who?
lisa_simpson: hahaha
lisa_simpson: well i guess i know now sweet text ba?
joan_g1014: no, forwarded quote, hehehe kakabasa ko din lang
lisa_simpson: pero sweet msg?
lisa_simpson: hahaha ur funny
lisa_simpson: maybe thats the kilig factor ur looking for 
joan_g1014: OMG, i hope not—its gonna be a mess if that’s the case
joan_g1014: is the kilig factor really that important?
lisa_simpson: it’s impt kasi e for me ha
lisa_simpson: otherwise, everything will just feel like a routine
lisa_simpson: if its not there, whats the diff between a good guy friend and ur bf?
lisa_simpson: other than the fact that you can kiss ur bf?
joan_g1014: *bull’s eye*
joan_g1014: hahahahahaha true true
lisa_simpson: i feel so joe d mango today
lisa_simpson: (lol)
joan_g1014: are you channeling joe by any chance?
joan_g1014: =))
joan_g1014: hehehehe
lisa_simpson: i have a question
joan_g1014: okay shoot
lisa_simpson: do you dress extra nice now? now that jr’s in ur life again? kasi you can bump into him any moment in school
joan_g1014: hahahaha, nope
joan_g1014: i dress the same way as always im not exactly a fashion plate
lisa_simpson: ur not exactly love struck yet hehe
joan_g1014: i said hi to him via text and then told him my friend mentioned him nga
joan_g1014: he replied ngayon lang, “kat2pos lang magworkout, but nga pala si say (alonzo) showbiz eh mas cute ka pa dun..hehe
lisa_simpson: haha please tell me ur not grinning from ear to ear
joan_g1014: what do i say????
lisa_simpson: haha say something like… malabo na ata mata mo
lisa_simpson: thats what i would say
joan_g1014: hahaha done!
joan_g1014: i said malabo ba mata mo? tapos i changed the subject
lisa_simpson: haha but its weird no
lisa_simpson: bakit di siya nakikipagmeet sayo sa school?
joan_g1014: i have no idea
joan_g1014: maybe he feels the same way
lisa_simpson: hehe probably
joan_g1014: that i should be the untouchable girl from afar
lisa_simpson: natorpe na din
lisa_simpson: do u look masungit or mataray?
joan_g1014: nope, i don’t
joan_g1014: i usually look very innocent and gullible according to most people
joan_g1014: sabi nga ng classmate ko sa law, mukha daw akong pinabili ng suka ng nanay tapos naligaw lang sa law school 
lisa_simpson: haha mukhang pwede lokohin
joan_g1014: hahahaha
joan_g1014: good for us then!
joan_g1014: i replied to him, malabo na ata mata mo then i changed the topic to his teammate, he just replied back that his eyesight is fine, he takes a lot of vitamin A
lisa_simpson: haha di ka na pwede magreply
lisa_simpson: on that topic, otherwise fishing ka na
joan_g1014: i replied hahahaha. then i made kwento na lang that i ran into his teammate
lisa_simpson: kwento sa text? basta kwentuhan mo ako pag nagkita na kayo ha
joan_g1014: hahahaha of course
lisa_simpson: keep it coming
lisa_simpson: haba ng hair
joan_g1014: hay, more likely my eyes are getting crossed from keeping track of the messages
lisa_simpson: hehe
joan_g1014: anyway im leaving for school in a bit
joan_g1014: thanks for listening!
