I Sigh for Thee
I’m not the most experienced person when it comes to male-female relationships, in fact I’m pretty much a novice myself having only actually BE IN ONE (serious one I mean) just last year. Friends attribute my late “blooming” to my fickle-mindedness and high standards but to be honest, I guess I just never really found the guy I wanted to be in a serious relationship with until two years ago. And my goodness, it’s been one hell of a discovery. ^_^
Male-female dynamics for me have always been set in stone, for me, the GUY ALWAYS COMPROMISES. I’ve never been one to chase or give everything or be crazily in love and I guess I drove a couple of guys crazy (or turned them gay) with my ice-princess manhid attitude. I’m a good friend but an unemotional girlfriend, it always made me wonder if I was a cold fish or if I just couldn’t handle real relationships. My best friend who was ages ago sought my hand, had even dubbed me “princess”.
Rewind back to 2004, the way things were going, the last place I expected to be was in a committed relationship. I was just starting as a courtside reporter, I was competiting in speech contests, I was running for student council AND I was all hung up on a player. Oh, and I was also on a dating streak– pure chinese guys. Back then, I felt that serious relationships would hold me down and I was having way too much fun dating and exploring my infatuation with that guy. I wrote poems for him, composed original text messages and forwarded it to everyone but him, I texted everybody but him–in short, I was your torpe girl. I was terrified of looking like I had a crush on him so I never really paid too much attention to him in fear of being found out. Read the rest of this entry »
